Warmth
Warmth, my dearest friend.
I ask that you not leave me just yet
remember that time when you were in my arms?
remember that time when we thought it was a mistake?
We all have felt it at least once
that heat, that fire, that warmth.
Most of us relish the next time we have it.
others will run from it as fast as they can.
I’m begging you warmth!
don’t leave my weary soul.
You warmth do more than keep me warm.
you remind me of why I breathe.
Nothing comes for free.
I would gladly give my life to feel that again.
just one more time.
To feel you in my arms.
To feel your warmth…
Anonymous asked: WOW @ tumblrdatinggame(.)com WTF is this.. my little brother's roommate is on this and I think I saw you too lol
On what? I am not on there nore will I choose to be on there. If someone is posing as me that is just a sad and demented little fiasco they are pulling. No idea what it is but I don’t do the online dating shenanigans anymore so your spam should now cease to exist. If I am on there send me a link to it and prove it sir/mam’.
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asvp-trilla:
white people
I find this to be
1) disturbing
2) proof that some Christians will always be bible thumpers
3) Keep your religion to yourself. This is america. (at least where I am)
4) you choose an already annoying song…
6) bigotry is highly frowned upon… Learn that now before it’s to late.
(via and-that-one-time)
T(s)… Thank you…
You have reminded me why I throw myself out like this. You have reminded me why I am the guy that waits patiently for the girl to figure things out. What is one more jump? I want to sky dive before I die… does this count? But I can never help that feeling that I am just jumping out of an airplane with no parachute… It seems to be what I do most of the time anyway. I have to thank you for reminding me why I am who I am and what I stood for and now what I stand for. You may not think you did alot of things for me but you would be sadly mistaken. I find that a person taht just talks to me that gets me to rethink and re operate what I am about to do then I can with great certainty tell you that I am happy with what I have done and will do. I have made some interesting choices in the past couple of weeks but I stand by them 100%. Back to regretting nothing back to being me. someone may try to bring me down now that I have said this just to try to ruin who I am, but I know I’ve got a few that will willingly let me know how amazing and super awesome I am. So T(s) you have more to do with this beaming mood than you know. S(b) you have a lot to do with this beaming mood also. T(s), you have made me remember that in the end there is no greater person than myself how I take care of me is a direct reflection of how I take care of others. You have reminded me that the looking for someone that cares about me as much as I care about them. J(k) says that is impossible… which I am also starting to believe true. I am glad you said those words. Which I might have stated in the past post… if not those words shall stay between us then. The last dive will never be forgotten…. because there will not be a last dive. untill the last curtain falls I’ll keep diving in your honor T(s) so thank you for the reminder. Thank you T(s) for showing me what it is to be human again. Thank you S(b) for re-igniting things inside of me that have been truly dead for a while. Thank S(b) for saving me a few times without even knowing you have. Thank you K(s) for reminding me of my purpose and why I choose to stay. thank you S(b),K(s),T(s),ect ect… you know what thank you group! for stopping me from leaving my house that night.and hurting someone. thankyou thankyou. thank you S(c) for being heartless in that time I needed you to be. time change and friends will be friends. Thank all of you for what you have done the listening you have done when I just needed someone to listen. Thank you all of you. a few people need to remember that I am gone for them now and need to realize this. I no longer exist in your eyes when will you get the point.
Not Enough Said… (Ever….)
I have this issue… That I can’t tell everything on my mind. There are somethings I wish I had said to you S(b) but I still can’t even write them it is that bad my heart explodes. I keep holding back but your still a mystery to me. Which is fine… but it’s not fine :U… so hard to explain these feelings. I hold my tongue more than people know. I can’t even say it here where my face is mostly hidden but my mind is completely exposed. I can never just say what I want to say EVER! and it makes me sad to know that I can’t tell them what and how I feel. anyone I am just that lame and it sucks… Only two people have gotten me to cave in and say whatever is on my mind… maybe three… I can’t remember if he did or not… so as far as I know it’s two maybe three… I can’t say everything someday I will… I am sorry this post is quite pointless. I just can’t say anything right now… *sigh* I’ll try again later…
It’s funny because I have the same thing except change the word love with hate. >_>..
(via c0untrygurl)
My personal code of honor.
1) Treat females as if they were queens. This only applies as long as I do not know them as a friendly bases then it is as far as they let me get away with.
2) I never start a fight unless they have it coming…
3)While alive my friends are part of my body, I take care of them as if I were to take care of myself. they come before me.
4)My family is chosen by me for me. If you are my brother or sister you will know because I will thus call you so. I protect my family with my life.
5)If I had the choice to kill my friends or kill and animal… I would kill myself.
6)I hate cats… cats can go die….
7) Stand strong and firm for what I say and how I act. Even if I am wrong.
8) Apologize with honor do not hide.
9)Never tell another serious Lie to anyone.
10) Keep my feels inside, people have to much to deal with already.
11) be myself 100% of the time. I may change from time to time but I am always me.
12) My death is a happy day not a sad day. Relish the thought do not fear it.
14) Avoid the number before this one at all costs
13) some of these are jokes obviously but you can tell the serious ones.
15) Love everyone but… Only date one and be with that one… period.
16)Will never cheat
17) Will Never not be stupid. (i’m a guy it’s my job)
18) I hold to my values
19) I keep my promises to the best of my ability.
20) till death do I part I will remember my mistakes.
there is a list of 150 somewhere on my other old laptop I have to what I stand for but I can’t find it so I guess I have to start over. (all of those were serious ones by the way)
“Perfect”
I am taking a break from the other two I need to post about because this poped into my mind. What is like to be Perfect? What is it like to say I am perfect? I have said it to myself a few times in the past day. It helps slightly the look at yourself. but I tend to slip back into my old ways of thinking. I find that “Perfect” is unattainable for me at this current moment. I have also decided to be perfect is an opinionated question only. To define perfect would be one of the harder things to do for me. What is perfect? how does perfect look? does it even have a look or is just a feeling? You can define perfect in the dictionary but yet you can’t even define it personally. What is perfect to you. Music,Art,cars,humans,females,males,people,friends,shoes. WHAT IS PERFECT? HOW CAN you define the improbable? I know for a fact that I will keep looking for what is perfect for me and when I find it… I will let the ones around me know that they are the reason it is perfect along with my hard work my thoughts and the people I share it with. When I find my “perfect” it won’t be just a person it will be a group of people and a place. Reminders of how I am are coming back to me so much drama I was starting to loose myself. Well, no worries. back to being mostly sane. (for me anyway xD) Few more battles to fight, but the war will never be over.
Don’t tell me I broke you! >:P
How Dare you! If I remember correctly you left me and left me alone to think about everything. It isn’t my job to chase everyone around like a chicken with my head fucking cut off especially back when I was only freaking 12! your FREAKING 8 years older than me! WHAT THE FUCK! Just because I think you need to figure your damn life out doesn’t mean I broke you when you left me when your friend died. When YOU turned heartless and showed me how cruel people can honestly be to one another. I will no longer live in your shadow and I will no longer deal with you BULL SHIT! Yes I know you are one of the anon’s hence why I am posting here. Do I care what you have to say anymore no no, I do not care anymore for your comments or your fake values of “love”. Don’t tell me I broke you when you were the one that left me to a world of darkness and bullies you were the only one back then that let me believe I was worth something. THEN I FOUND PEOPLE BETTER THAN YOU! PEOPLE THAT CARE! PEOPLE THAT WILL WATCH MY SIX WITHOUT ME HAVING TO ASK! you want me to watch your six? never again will I watch someones six that has put me to rock bottom after letting me touch the stars. People just don’t understand how much it hurts….
